As of now I'm a stay at home mother I enjoy it I don't have to get up super early and I can do whatever I want during the day. I like spending time with my daughter Mckenzie and seeing hr grow and learn. Unfortunately my husband recently got hired to start a new job for the Baltimore County Fire Department and doing so means that he is unable to work at his and job. Therefore I am going to have to find a job that I can work at during the night shift. This means that I'm going to have to work at night take care of the baby while Paul is in the academy and sleep when he comes home ad then go back to work... and repeat. Well obviously I'm not entirely happy about it especially since I haven't worked for about a year. I was forced into maternity leave on January 24th 2008 and i haven't been back since. My husband suggested that I go back to the company I use to work for but I kinda feel like I got screwed by them and I wouldn't want to ask for my job back, even though I really enjoyed it,. I just didn't realize how hard it was to find a job it really sucks. Also it's hard to find a job that pay enough to support life you know. and the really sucks part is since I'll be home Pauls going to want me to cook him dinner every day when he comes home and I know that I'm going to be so tired I'm not going to be able to see straight.
I did apply for 3 jobs so far two at GBMC as a Secretary one in the NICU and one in general surgery. The other one was a AAI as security guard, Ive worked there before so I know people. I haven't herd from any of them yet but it's only been a couple of days I haven't told anyone yet just in case they don't call me back or don't get the job. oh well. It's going to be a adventure going back to work but I guess I'm up for the challenge, even though I'm not looking forward to it at all. I love seeing my baby and playing with her ad teaching her things. I'm the reason shes standing and holding her bottle and playing patty cake I mean come on... she needs me. I don't know if i have separation anxiety or if I just don't want anyone else to watch her I know I'm going to miss her so much. I hate work it's a waste of time thats all. boo Tune ito my next blog about starting to go to the gym 3 to 4 days a week and my diet yippy.
