Man I can't believe that its been 2 years almost to the month that I started this blog. I don't think I've written anything of true interest, just some of my random thoughts. I've been looking through some of the other blogs on this site and here are a lot of interesting things people talk about: crafts, pets, knitting, their kids. I find that a lot of the time I really don't know what to talk about knowing that some of my friends do read this I try to write about things that would interest them. For instance funny things about my dog, my views on gay right and the breast cancer ripoff to name a few. I even thought of maybe asking someone what they would like to know about me so that i could write something that would give them a glimpse into my mind.
Ok so here it goes if you do wonder anything about me and would like to suggest something to write about I have a face book and a myspace feel free. I find from time to time that my mind is blank and words and thought escape me. I try to keep up and write something every so often but its hard.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
An update for you... it's been a while
Ok where to begin.... well it has been a while I had a baby boy his name is John Paul Perry the 2nd. he was born Sept 17 2009 he was 8lbs 1 oz and was born at GBMC at 2:49 pm. i was induced and was in labor for 9 hours and pushed for a half an hour. He's growing fast and doing well and laughs a lot more then kenzie did. Mckenzie is getting older but not really getting any bigger shes about 20 months and only weights 22lbs she never wants to eat. Shes really smart saying a lot of words and she has an attitude all her own.
My husband ,Paul, is going to Afghanistan in 2 weeks hes leaving Jan 4th. Its going to be hard having to deal with that and still take care of my kids. They'll get me through it and help me to stay strong they need me and that's all I live for. Even though Paul and I haven't been getting along very well lately I love him and still don't want to see him go. I'll be fine i have a good support system at home and have a lot of friends and family who love me. I do really worry about him dieing because lets be honest that is a possibility. I don't know what i would do if Paul died i would want to die myself hes all Ive known for almost 10 years. But again I would stay strong for my kids they need me more then i need myself... if that makes sense. on a funny note Ive been telling him to be careless at work and break something lol. thinking about it makes me cry so I'm done typing about that part of my life.
I started this bog to get things off of my chest. I've had a lot to talk about but i have been so busy with my little ones its been hard. I'm honestly not even sure people even read this. But it helps me get my feelings out and let people know how i feel if they do read it.
Ive been watching Hoarders lately I see a lot of myself in some of these people. I to don't like to get rid of my things and always think someone can use them or i could sell them. Its almost scary I would probably live like that if Paul didn't keep me in check and throw things away behind my back. although I really do wonder how people can live in complete filth. Keeping things of value is one thing but keeping trash is odd. There was a lady in here that kept rotting food or poop. yuck. I'm a messy person and my husband hates it and is always telling me he's going to leave me one day because I don't clean. even though i messy however I would never let my house get so filthy that I was stepping over the trash and couldn't see the floor.
I want to go back to school in the fall and take general courses I'm 24 years old and still have no idea what I want to do. right now I'm a stay at home mom and I love it. however my biggest fear in life is dieing unsuccessful and I feel if I died tomorrow that what I would be doing. My problem is I'm very lazy and I don't really follow through with things and I don't work as hard as I should.
Ok I think I'm done for right now, hopefully I'll do better with keeping up with this. If I knew people did read this Imight do better with it haha
Monday, February 23, 2009
Breast cancer ripoff
I was online on day this week and I looked up the breast cancer 3 day 60 mile walk I couldn't believe to register its $90 and then you have to raise $2,300. This is what the website says 3daywalk.com: "Registered walkers must be 16 years old by the end of 2009 and agree to raise a minimum of $2,300 for the Breast Cancer 3-Day benefiting Susan G. Komen for the Cure and the National Philanthropic Trust Breast Cancer Fund, in order to walk. Minors 16 or 17 years of age must be accompanied by a parent or legal guardian during the event who is also a registered walker. Please note that registration fees and all donations are non-refundable and non-transferable. All walkers must have medical insurance at the time of the event in order to participate." So if you under 18 you have to register plus you have to have an adult registered also and you both have to pay the $90 and you both have to raise $2,300. How ridicules is that. I was unaware that Susan G Komen for the Cure only wanted rich people to raise money for breast cancer. They even have a place where you can put a discount code...what kind of crap walk is this I mean come on you would think they would be happy with whatever they got. And here's another little tid bit of info even if your going there to volunteer as a crew member you also pay a $90 registration fee and you must raise $2,300. If you as a participant don't raise the minimum amount of money they'll take it from a credit card or bank account you have to sign a contract saying that you will. Here is the contract you must sign:
Agreement
I wish to participate in the Breast Cancer 3-Day. If I am registering as a walker, I will be at least 16 years or older by the end of this year (2009). During the event, minors under 18 years of age must be accompanied by a parent or legal guardian who is also a registered walker. If I am registering as a crew member, I will be at least 18 years old on the date the event commences.
I understand that all donations processed by the Breast Cancer 3-Day donation office are non-refundable and non-transferable, even if I do not participate in the event. I also understand that the $90 registration fee is non-refundable, non-transferable, and not tax deductible. If I am registering as a walker, I understand that I must raise at least $2,300 in order to participate in the event. If I have not reached my fundraising minimum of $2,300 by the time the event commences, I may opt to make an instant self-donation or a delayed self-donation, or I may choose not to participate.
Waiver and Release of Liability
I understand that while participating in this event, I will be using public streets and facilities where many hazards exist and I am aware of and appreciate the risks that may result. I am also aware that accidents may occur during this event which could result in serious injury or death. I am voluntarily participating in this event with knowledge of all such risks.
In consideration for being permitted to participate in this event, I agree to assume all risks and to release, hold harmless and covenant not to sue NPT Breast Cancer 3-Day, LLC, Event 360, Inc., Susan G. Komen for the Cure, National Philanthropic Trust, and any designated beneficiaries, sponsors, officials, participating clubs, communities, organizations, friends of the event, including the event medical sponsor, the Medical Director, and members of the Medical Team, and all other government or public entities including, but not limited to, the Department of Transportation and affiliated organizations and all their respective directors, officers, agents, employees and members (collectively, “the releasees”), for any claim, loss or liability that I may have arising out of my participation in the event, including bodily injury, death or property damage, whether caused by negligence or carelessness of the releasees or otherwise.
I intend by the Waiver and Release of Liability to release in advance, and to waive my rights and to discharge all of the releasees from all claims, losses or liabilities for death, bodily injury or property damage that I may have, or which may hereafter accrue to me, as a result of my participation in this event, even though that liability may arise from negligence or carelessness on the part of the releasees, from dangerous or defective property or equipment owned, maintained or controlled by them or because of their possible liability without fault. I understand and agree that this Waiver and Release of Liability is binding on my heirs, assigns and legal representatives.
I am physically capable of completing this event. I understand I may be asked to provide a doctor’s note or other proof that I am permitted to participate by my primary care health provider. If I am aware of or under treatment for any physical infirmity, ailment or illness, my medical care provider knows of and has approved my participation in this event. I will maintain personal health insurance while participating in the event. I acknowledge that I, and I alone, am solely responsible for my personal health and safety, and the personal property I bring with me. I will read the event description and rules for participation in the event and I will abide by all rules and regulations established by the event organizers and personnel as well as the local vehicle code. I further agree that my participation in the event is subject to the sole discretion of the organizers and Medical Director of the event, and that my participation may be limited for medical or other safety-related reasons.
Photo Release
I understand that my name, photograph, picture, voice, or likeness (collectively “image”) may be used for all promotional purposes related to the event by NPT Breast Cancer 3-Day, LLC, Event 360, Inc., Susan G. Komen for the Cure, National Philanthropic Trust, and their successors and assigns, sponsors, beneficiaries, licensees, affiliates, and employees (collectively “grantees”). I hereby grant to the grantees the right to (i) use my image in promotional materials or for any other legitimate purpose, (ii)create composite or computer-manipulated materials from my image, (iii) use, reproduce, publish, exhibit, distribute, and transmit my image in any media, including but not limited to print material, television, film, Internet, DVD, and CD-ROM, (iv) assign the above rights to third parties. I waive the right to inspect or approve my image or materials that incorporate my image. I understand that I will receive no compensation in connection with the use of my image. I release the grantees from any liability, damages, or claims resulting from the use of my image, including claims for libel or invasion of privacy. I understand and agree that the terms of this paragraph are binding on my heirs, assigns, and legal representatives.
I have carefully read this Waiver of Liability and Agreement and fully understand its contents. I am aware that by selecting the "I AGREE" check box I agree to all terms and conditions.
My Great Grandmother had breast cancer and I wanted to do this in her memory and it just really bothers me that you have to give a certain amount of money. I mean I think that they should be happy with what they can get and if your going to have a set amount of money make it something reasonable, that more them my mortgage. Shame on them for asking that much money it makes it so much harder for people to walk and it's really in my opinion not fair. I wish I could boycott but who would I go with and where would you do it. I think its great that theres an organization that's helping breast cancer but I don't think they should be so greedy. what do you think?
Agreement
I wish to participate in the Breast Cancer 3-Day. If I am registering as a walker, I will be at least 16 years or older by the end of this year (2009). During the event, minors under 18 years of age must be accompanied by a parent or legal guardian who is also a registered walker. If I am registering as a crew member, I will be at least 18 years old on the date the event commences.
I understand that all donations processed by the Breast Cancer 3-Day donation office are non-refundable and non-transferable, even if I do not participate in the event. I also understand that the $90 registration fee is non-refundable, non-transferable, and not tax deductible. If I am registering as a walker, I understand that I must raise at least $2,300 in order to participate in the event. If I have not reached my fundraising minimum of $2,300 by the time the event commences, I may opt to make an instant self-donation or a delayed self-donation, or I may choose not to participate.
Waiver and Release of Liability
I understand that while participating in this event, I will be using public streets and facilities where many hazards exist and I am aware of and appreciate the risks that may result. I am also aware that accidents may occur during this event which could result in serious injury or death. I am voluntarily participating in this event with knowledge of all such risks.
In consideration for being permitted to participate in this event, I agree to assume all risks and to release, hold harmless and covenant not to sue NPT Breast Cancer 3-Day, LLC, Event 360, Inc., Susan G. Komen for the Cure, National Philanthropic Trust, and any designated beneficiaries, sponsors, officials, participating clubs, communities, organizations, friends of the event, including the event medical sponsor, the Medical Director, and members of the Medical Team, and all other government or public entities including, but not limited to, the Department of Transportation and affiliated organizations and all their respective directors, officers, agents, employees and members (collectively, “the releasees”), for any claim, loss or liability that I may have arising out of my participation in the event, including bodily injury, death or property damage, whether caused by negligence or carelessness of the releasees or otherwise.
I intend by the Waiver and Release of Liability to release in advance, and to waive my rights and to discharge all of the releasees from all claims, losses or liabilities for death, bodily injury or property damage that I may have, or which may hereafter accrue to me, as a result of my participation in this event, even though that liability may arise from negligence or carelessness on the part of the releasees, from dangerous or defective property or equipment owned, maintained or controlled by them or because of their possible liability without fault. I understand and agree that this Waiver and Release of Liability is binding on my heirs, assigns and legal representatives.
I am physically capable of completing this event. I understand I may be asked to provide a doctor’s note or other proof that I am permitted to participate by my primary care health provider. If I am aware of or under treatment for any physical infirmity, ailment or illness, my medical care provider knows of and has approved my participation in this event. I will maintain personal health insurance while participating in the event. I acknowledge that I, and I alone, am solely responsible for my personal health and safety, and the personal property I bring with me. I will read the event description and rules for participation in the event and I will abide by all rules and regulations established by the event organizers and personnel as well as the local vehicle code. I further agree that my participation in the event is subject to the sole discretion of the organizers and Medical Director of the event, and that my participation may be limited for medical or other safety-related reasons.
Photo Release
I understand that my name, photograph, picture, voice, or likeness (collectively “image”) may be used for all promotional purposes related to the event by NPT Breast Cancer 3-Day, LLC, Event 360, Inc., Susan G. Komen for the Cure, National Philanthropic Trust, and their successors and assigns, sponsors, beneficiaries, licensees, affiliates, and employees (collectively “grantees”). I hereby grant to the grantees the right to (i) use my image in promotional materials or for any other legitimate purpose, (ii)create composite or computer-manipulated materials from my image, (iii) use, reproduce, publish, exhibit, distribute, and transmit my image in any media, including but not limited to print material, television, film, Internet, DVD, and CD-ROM, (iv) assign the above rights to third parties. I waive the right to inspect or approve my image or materials that incorporate my image. I understand that I will receive no compensation in connection with the use of my image. I release the grantees from any liability, damages, or claims resulting from the use of my image, including claims for libel or invasion of privacy. I understand and agree that the terms of this paragraph are binding on my heirs, assigns, and legal representatives.
I have carefully read this Waiver of Liability and Agreement and fully understand its contents. I am aware that by selecting the "I AGREE" check box I agree to all terms and conditions.
My Great Grandmother had breast cancer and I wanted to do this in her memory and it just really bothers me that you have to give a certain amount of money. I mean I think that they should be happy with what they can get and if your going to have a set amount of money make it something reasonable, that more them my mortgage. Shame on them for asking that much money it makes it so much harder for people to walk and it's really in my opinion not fair. I wish I could boycott but who would I go with and where would you do it. I think its great that theres an organization that's helping breast cancer but I don't think they should be so greedy. what do you think?
Sunday, February 15, 2009
A friend in need
Today I found out the one of my best friends grand father died. The part that hurts is that I didn't find out from her but from a mutual friend. I also found out from reading a blog of hers that shes been in the hospital for the last 10 days. I feel really hurt becuase I obviously have been a crappy friend for her not to want to include me in her life. It hurts me that we've grown so far apart for us to be so distant. She means so much to me and I were to loss her I would be devistated I don't know if she feels the same for me. I wish I would have been a better friend in the past. Mandy means the world to me and shes been very sick and I wasn't there for her I wish she would have let me know. I feel bad becuase I don't really know whats she been going through and I wish she had someone to relate to and a lot of the people she was able to relate to are no longer with her and thier desease has taken thier lives. I'm so happy that she has been with us this long and I want her to have a happy and long life. I would do anything to help her and I hope she knows it. We have been friends for about 18 years I think we use to do eveything together I have some of my best memories with her at her house we spent a lot of years together. I love her and if anything happened to her I don't know what I would do I just wish I knew her better then I do right now and I wish we were closer because shes a great person and she deserves the best. I don't know if she knows how I feel about her but I do hope that I've made it clear to her through out these 18 years.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Going to the Gym
My sister and I have been going to the gym every monday and thursday we go in and do a half hour to 45 min worth of cardio and then we go and work on the machines. So far I think Ive gained a couple of pounds and Im hoping that its muscle lol. I think that when you go to the gym results should be instant. Because whe you don't see the results you wat it makes you not want to go back...am I right. We both don't really enjoy going but we do it just to get it over with. It's nice to go with omeone else because you can make eachother go and you can keep it interesting while your there. Kayla and I like to look at all the girls and say thats what I to look like I want her butt, her abs, and her arms, you kow just to keep it fun and give ourselves a goal lol. Well I started EMT refresher this week ad so I wont be ale to go on thursday and I didn't go on monday this week because I went to the fire house because we have meeting every monday. Not only do I have a bunch of stuff to do the next couple of weeks but I just found out that Im pregnant again so that makes it that much harder to go because I don't feel good a lot of the time. It figures as soon as I decide to go to the gym to loose my baby wieght I become pregnant got to love it. Well I think thats all I have to say for today see ya next time.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
JOB SEARCH
As of now I'm a stay at home mother I enjoy it I don't have to get up super early and I can do whatever I want during the day. I like spending time with my daughter Mckenzie and seeing hr grow and learn. Unfortunately my husband recently got hired to start a new job for the Baltimore County Fire Department and doing so means that he is unable to work at his and job. Therefore I am going to have to find a job that I can work at during the night shift. This means that I'm going to have to work at night take care of the baby while Paul is in the academy and sleep when he comes home ad then go back to work... and repeat. Well obviously I'm not entirely happy about it especially since I haven't worked for about a year. I was forced into maternity leave on January 24th 2008 and i haven't been back since. My husband suggested that I go back to the company I use to work for but I kinda feel like I got screwed by them and I wouldn't want to ask for my job back, even though I really enjoyed it,. I just didn't realize how hard it was to find a job it really sucks. Also it's hard to find a job that pay enough to support life you know. and the really sucks part is since I'll be home Pauls going to want me to cook him dinner every day when he comes home and I know that I'm going to be so tired I'm not going to be able to see straight.
I did apply for 3 jobs so far two at GBMC as a Secretary one in the NICU and one in general surgery. The other one was a AAI as security guard, Ive worked there before so I know people. I haven't herd from any of them yet but it's only been a couple of days I haven't told anyone yet just in case they don't call me back or don't get the job. oh well. It's going to be a adventure going back to work but I guess I'm up for the challenge, even though I'm not looking forward to it at all. I love seeing my baby and playing with her ad teaching her things. I'm the reason shes standing and holding her bottle and playing patty cake I mean come on... she needs me. I don't know if i have separation anxiety or if I just don't want anyone else to watch her I know I'm going to miss her so much. I hate work it's a waste of time thats all. boo Tune ito my next blog about starting to go to the gym 3 to 4 days a week and my diet yippy.
I did apply for 3 jobs so far two at GBMC as a Secretary one in the NICU and one in general surgery. The other one was a AAI as security guard, Ive worked there before so I know people. I haven't herd from any of them yet but it's only been a couple of days I haven't told anyone yet just in case they don't call me back or don't get the job. oh well. It's going to be a adventure going back to work but I guess I'm up for the challenge, even though I'm not looking forward to it at all. I love seeing my baby and playing with her ad teaching her things. I'm the reason shes standing and holding her bottle and playing patty cake I mean come on... she needs me. I don't know if i have separation anxiety or if I just don't want anyone else to watch her I know I'm going to miss her so much. I hate work it's a waste of time thats all. boo Tune ito my next blog about starting to go to the gym 3 to 4 days a week and my diet yippy.
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